The past is never really the past. It stays with me all the time.
-Norman Bates, Psycho III
For those who had watched the movies Pscyo, Psycho II or Psycho III, you know that no matter how hard Norman Bates tries to forget the 'Mother', he will always be haunted by 'her' and became 'her' and the urge to kill will never stop...
So, that was the story of Norman Bates.
The story of makcik ni from shah alam here would be different.
The past is the past but it never really leave you, people will always remember your past, no matter what you became now...
"Ko kenal tak penyanyi yang nama Jamal tu? Ala... yang hisap dadah tu la... yang masuk keluar masuk keluar pusat serenti tu...."
"Ko kenal tak penyanyi yang nama Jamal tu? Ala ... yang berlakon filem Azura tu... yang handsome, yang tinggi, yang suaranya sedap sangat nyanyi lagu Gadis Melayu tu..."
"Si Zarina tu dulu pernah bergambar bogel tau untuk majalah lucah"
Walhal, Zarina tu dah insaf dan hajjah dah sekarang.
People will never forget.
I did complaint that I was feeling bored because I don't have any activities to do beside surfing the internet and blogging. So, I have found this wonderful website where I got to know a lot of new friends, involved in their activities, until one day, somebody from my past contacted me.... oh... I really hate to say that I am not even happy to this so called 'jejak kasih'....
May be I was happy for the first few moments but when he started to recall my past, it just stroke me in the head that "damn, how many people knew about that?"
I pulled myself out immediately, feeling ashamed and angry... I realised that once, I was not a good girl. I did thing that I shouldn't. When you are a lot younger, you never thought that whatever that you do will be remembered when you are older. You just thought that you are young and you wanna to try things.
That is why, I always remind my little sister to "remember that whatever bad things that you do today and proud of, you will actually live to regret it in the future. Believe it because I have gone through it!"
I wrote in my previous blog quite sometimes ago that I don't like re-union, alumni, gathering or whatever they called it, one of the reason is this - because I don't people to remeber my past and I don't want to remember it too.
Then, does this mean I can not become 'somebody' in the future, like somebody famous, politician may be, high rank government officer may be?
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